Lately I've been thinking about what I want to do with my life.
For a while I wanted to attend La Sorbonne and become a French instructor! But then I had my accident and that set me back...by A LOT; financially, timewise and in spirit.
It's not that I don't still want to be a French instructor and I will never stop hoping that I'll attend La Sorbonne someday. But maybe I should start with something a little more reachable and maybe I'm just not ready for that yet.
"But okay self, what do we want to do?"
"Um...right now I'd like to down a bottle of wine."
"Okay. But after that?"
"Maybe play The Sims..."
"Okay fine. After that?"
"Logical self don't you know by now that after I've had a bottle of wine and played The Sims for 8hrs it's time to sleep?"
"Okay. FINE! When you first wake up what do you want to do? And don't say 'take a leak' or 'coffee.'"
I think I want to write. I used to love writing and gave it up for a while due to what one arrogant ass who shall remain nameless once said. I enjoy making a character and a place and making action.
I also like Philosophy and trying to incorporate it into writing.
No, I don't want to write the next...wait, what's the top pop culture book series of the moment? I'll just say I'm not going to write the next Twilight or even attempt to. I could never allow myself to write something with that many plot holes and character flaws. Seriously, a vampire who remains in highschool forever instead of actually doing something that might benefit mankind? Okay, bad example...let me try again.
I'm not expecting to be the next Zola...okay having everyone of my works banned by the Catholic Church would be pretty sweet...okay...bad example. I'm not going expecting to be the next Hugo; that works...I can barely write and read one page that I'm 100% happy with, let alone 1200 pages. Maybe not the best example...not the next Shakespeare; that works. Well known, controversial, pop culture references the dude's work and it stands the test of time. It would be totally awesome if I ever did write something on par with the greats or as popular as Twilight...or any other teen/tween/kids book series from the 2000's to the present. But I'm not expecting an overnight success and if only my friends/family are the only people who read my work I'd be happy. And it would be fun to go into Barnes and Noble and place my books on all the "best seller" or "favorites" tables in the store! Come on, who hasn't thought of doing that? I do it all the time...I go find my favorite books and strategically place them. Yes, The Beast Within and Titus Andronicus are appropriate reading material for kids under 10. Sure, L'Assomoir and Notre-Dame De Paris belong on the "religious" table. L'Assomoir=this is what happens when you drink and spend money you don't have! Good moral lessons to learn there. Notre-Dame De Paris=A book about a large church and it has a priest in it.
So I think I want to just write.